The other day I apologized to my hubby for always making life so hard...not taking the "easy road".
Bless that man, he knew exactly what I meant. And he just smiled.
When our friends are taking vacations...we're taking in foster kids.
When others are updating their homes or their vehicles, we continue to clunk along in our "vintage" cars (with the smashed in dash from a deer or two) and our worn out furniture, because we gave up our second income so that I could be home to raise our children. (And because we gave up trying to impress others a long time ago :-)
When we hit middle age and our peers were building their retirement funds, we were traveling to a little girl who was sitting in China, waiting for a family to call her own. (Bye bye, 401K...I will miss you)
When friends are eating out, we're staying home.
When others are shopping at Kohls and Macy's , I'm wandering through Once Upon a Child.
I know that our lives could be different and SO much easier. Loren knows that too. But when we evaluate our goals in life, they aren't the ones we had expected we would have at this age.
We aren't planning on taking trips or playing golf when we retire. Heck, at this rate, we won't be able to retire! But we are working out God's plan for our life, and that doesn't include luxeries and wealth. And apparently some week's it doesn't include free time either :-) However, it does include incredible feelings of satisfaction, lots of joy, laughs, connection with the children in our lives, and the feeling that we're right where we are supposed to be.
I don't remember exactly the quote, but it does something like this: I would rather end my life used up and worn out, having given it my all, and have the Lord say "Well done, Good and Faithful servant" than to have lived a life of ease and selfishness. ( you get the drift...)
That is why we do what we do, and why we make the choices that we make.
It's not as if the sacrifices are extreme or miserable- we are very blessed! We are not hungry or cold or deprived of any real necessity.
Do I care if I have new clothes? No, not really.
Can my pride handle driving an old car that isn't as nice as my neighbors? Absolutely!!
Those items are not important to us anymore. What's important is that we have been entrusted with these precious lives, to mold and guide, hug and play with, for as long as they are with us. And we are humbled by the responsibility.